he looked the same tonight
when I got home from work, tired
from a long day of problems
psychosis
target languages and long training sessions
he looked the same as this morning
when I left him in his crate
settling in for a day of napping
a day of not caring
making a nest of comforters to comfort his tired body
he looked the same when I got home
after getting the news
after knowing that the knot on his head
the bulge just behind his left ear may kill him
he looked the same
don't know what I expected
thought about him all day long
thought about not having him around
thought about not having done enough
not having loved him enough
not having worked hard enough
not having enough money to save him
he looked the same to me
he looked up to me
I let him down
promised to keep him safe and warm
promised to keep him fed and dry
promised to protect him, but the enemy came anyway
the silent enemy
the enemy that will take my boy from me
the enemy that will take my heart from me
piece by piece until it's gone
I'd just gotten it back.
he looks the same to me still
curled on my bed
wound into my heart
he looks the same to me
-N, 28 November 2006
28 November 2006
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Nan I know it's so hard - but you mustn't blame yourself.. I'm thinking of you and Profile.
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